I am very fortunate to have a job that I love. If money didn't exist and we could choose freely what to do with each day, I would still teach piano (though perhaps not as many hours). I love getting to know my students, watching them progress, watching them persist at a tough challenge, and watching them enjoy music.
I do get to choose my own hours, although I wouldn't say I'm my own boss. I think I have 41 bosses, some of whom are attending preschool. But, luckily for me, they're pretty good leaders.
The biggest downside to my job is the fact that it's a lot of social interaction for someone with social anxiety. Despite enjoying the interactions with my students, I often feel a lot of fear and sometimes even panic prior to and immediately after a lesson. It's a bit like being a foodie chef who is just a teensy bit allergic to everything they make.
I wonder who I'd be without this anxiety, and especially what kind of teacher I'd be. But I just have to do the best I can with what I have, even if it's a lizard-brain constantly screaming. Maybe one day, when nothing bad has happened for long enough, lizard-brain might even get the message and lay down for a nap.
Who knows?
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